THANK YOU, friends. Thank you to all of you who still reach out and support me (and us) even when I (we) can't give much attention in return these days. I cannot fathom how I managed to scrounge up so many true, true friends who give and give and give and don't expect anything back. I am blessed beyond belief to have so many of you fill me up so often. My heart is bursting with all of your love, I promise.
The knot in my stomach about Gideon's chemo today was a mommy hunch, I think. Gideon woke up at 3:30 this morning vomiting. It wasn't a chemo vomit, it was a sick-sick vomit. Isn't it weird that there are different classes of vomit now? Am I grossing you out? Moving along... He had a fever of 101.2 at that point. I knew we were going in to the hospital this morning anyway, so I felt a lot of relief there. Once he woke up, his fever went down to 100.2 and once we were at the hospital, he was still registering with a low-grade fever. It was decided to hold off on the spinal chemo. Phew. Relief. Weight lifted. Instead, Gideon received antibiotics via IV to battle this bug. The good part: Gideon's numbers were high enough that we didn't need to be checked into the hospital overnight for monitoring. If his fever returns, we will just go back for another IV antibiotic. In the meantime, it has been cuddle and story-reading quiet time. He is still napping!
Please continue to pray that the bug works out of him and the sickness is short-lived. We are slated to return to the hospital for spinal chemo on Tuesday, and THEN the steroids will begin again.
I have to say... One of my favorite moments of the day was when Gideon sang while he slept. He was singing, "Don't worry, baby! Everything will be allllriiiiight!" in a hushed sleep-filled airiness that just wrapped me up. I was thankful for that. It felt like a Holy moment to me. Really. It felt like God was singing to me through my baby's voice. It is true that I sing that to Gideon quite often, but it was the moment that just revived this heart. I'm thankful. I know everything will be allllriiiiiiight.
(P.S. I need to THANK a blog-reading person I just met for sending me this link. I read about Kourage while Gideon was being pumped full of antibiotics and the happy tears were welcomed in that moment. I ordered Kourage. It was an impulse buy I am PROUD of. THANK YOU, Christy!)